No need to explain
I haven't been posting much lately for several reasons, but mainly I just haven't felt the desire to post. My posts usually come from trying to figure something out through reflection, or to explain myself to myself. I haven't felt the need to explain myself much recently. This has also been a time of high wellbeing and dissertation productivity. The common denominator may be self-confidence, or perhaps lower anxiety.
I really like living this way, without constant performance anxiety and self-justification. I don't want to turn this into advice, because it's not what everyone needs and I'm not sure how to properly caveat it. But if you spend a lot of your time explaining yourself (especially explaining yourself to yourself), consider that by explaining yourself you may in some sense be trying to justify your existence. And then consider how you would feel if there was no need to explain.