Weaponized self-doubt

The biggest hook they had in me was this fear that I’m dangerously inadequate and they somehow held the keys to mitigating that.

May 11, 2026

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I’ve had a long, messy breakup with EA/rationality. I think it’s fair to call the core group a cult, and even though I’ve been gone for a while now, I’m still deprogramming.

The biggest hook they had in me was this fear that I’m dangerously inadequate and they somehow held the keys to mitigating that.

Holly Elmore

Weaponized self-doubt

The biggest hook they had in me was this fear that I’m dangerously inadequate and *they* somehow held the keys to mitigating that.

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The biggest hook they had in me was this fear that I’m dangerously inadequate and they somehow held the keys to mitigating that.